Friday, May 29, 2009
Tuesday, May 26, 2009
i get paid thursday
and it will be my first 'bigger' paycheck for the summer. excited! i dred going back to school in august but i will be DONE after that. forever.
still bummed about everything. it's really odd that ever since i found out about this possible decision, i see things about the military EVERYwhere i look. and i mean everywhere. it's ridiculous. he says he still wants us to be together, and i believe that. i just can't help but feel like this new "life" might make more decisions on it's own than he might actually make himself. does that even make sense? training for the air force would be 12 weeks and i'm pretty sure it wouldn't be in NC. 4 months. we already decided that he would just give me his half of the rent up front (for the time that he's gone) and i would pay it. i don't want another roommate. i told him i would rather live alone in OUR apartment that get another roommate.
it's not even set in stone. it's not even PARTIALLY set in stone. it's all going to work out.
time to get ready for work now so hopefully i won't have to think about it for another 8 hours.
i love him.
still bummed about everything. it's really odd that ever since i found out about this possible decision, i see things about the military EVERYwhere i look. and i mean everywhere. it's ridiculous. he says he still wants us to be together, and i believe that. i just can't help but feel like this new "life" might make more decisions on it's own than he might actually make himself. does that even make sense? training for the air force would be 12 weeks and i'm pretty sure it wouldn't be in NC. 4 months. we already decided that he would just give me his half of the rent up front (for the time that he's gone) and i would pay it. i don't want another roommate. i told him i would rather live alone in OUR apartment that get another roommate.
it's not even set in stone. it's not even PARTIALLY set in stone. it's all going to work out.
time to get ready for work now so hopefully i won't have to think about it for another 8 hours.
i love him.
Monday, May 25, 2009
It has been quite a while!
I've been busy though.
Let's see, where to start?
My hair is totally growing!
I've gone from this
to this 
Slowly but surely!
Next on the list: The teacher we had as school this past semester hated me. She hated me because she was an idiot and I wasn't. She hated me because I asked questions that she couldn't answer. She hated me because I am not one to keep my mouth shut and just believe what you tell me. She hated me because I proved her wrong repeatedly and still said please and thank you and was disgustingly polite. She hated me enough to get me suspended. I "physically came at" her. Cool though right? Who gets suspended from cosmetology school? I do! So I failed theory. Oh well. Was supposed to be DONE with school this summer and now I will not be. The good news is that I'm working MORE than full time at the salon at 10$ an hour. The bad news is that I have to go back and finish in the fall. LAME GAME. Oh well.
Moving on to more important things. Nate and I are scheduled to move into OUR apartment on Dec 27th. The best christmas present ever is that we will be living together. I can't express how it makes me feel. But isn't there always an ugly side to everything good?? I found out Nate is interested in joining the military. Out of nowhere. I haven't told anyone but my mom because of how much it upsets me to even say it out loud. I don't know what to do. I don't know where it leaves us and I can't even wrap my brain around it. There are no words that will ever explain the way I feel recently. It's bad. I sound so selfish but if that's what it is then that's just what it is. I've asked him if he realizes how much of a life changing experience it is for more than just him.
I don't know.
Let's see, where to start?
My hair is totally growing!
I've gone from this
to this 
Slowly but surely!
Next on the list: The teacher we had as school this past semester hated me. She hated me because she was an idiot and I wasn't. She hated me because I asked questions that she couldn't answer. She hated me because I am not one to keep my mouth shut and just believe what you tell me. She hated me because I proved her wrong repeatedly and still said please and thank you and was disgustingly polite. She hated me enough to get me suspended. I "physically came at" her. Cool though right? Who gets suspended from cosmetology school? I do! So I failed theory. Oh well. Was supposed to be DONE with school this summer and now I will not be. The good news is that I'm working MORE than full time at the salon at 10$ an hour. The bad news is that I have to go back and finish in the fall. LAME GAME. Oh well.
Moving on to more important things. Nate and I are scheduled to move into OUR apartment on Dec 27th. The best christmas present ever is that we will be living together. I can't express how it makes me feel. But isn't there always an ugly side to everything good?? I found out Nate is interested in joining the military. Out of nowhere. I haven't told anyone but my mom because of how much it upsets me to even say it out loud. I don't know what to do. I don't know where it leaves us and I can't even wrap my brain around it. There are no words that will ever explain the way I feel recently. It's bad. I sound so selfish but if that's what it is then that's just what it is. I've asked him if he realizes how much of a life changing experience it is for more than just him.
I don't know.
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