i get paid thursday

and it will be my first 'bigger' paycheck for the summer. excited! i dred going back to school in august but i will be DONE after that. forever.

still bummed about everything. it's really odd that ever since i found out about this possible decision, i see things about the military EVERYwhere i look. and i mean everywhere. it's ridiculous. he says he still wants us to be together, and i believe that. i just can't help but feel like this new "life" might make more decisions on it's own than he might actually make himself. does that even make sense? training for the air force would be 12 weeks and i'm pretty sure it wouldn't be in NC. 4 months. we already decided that he would just give me his half of the rent up front (for the time that he's gone) and i would pay it. i don't want another roommate. i told him i would rather live alone in OUR apartment that get another roommate.

it's not even set in stone. it's not even PARTIALLY set in stone. it's all going to work out.

time to get ready for work now so hopefully i won't have to think about it for another 8 hours.




i love him.